Anything but a wasted life

SS Mothership / Read / Anything but a wasted life

Photographer, sex industry veteran & now published writer, Sita Kaylin is back with a new piece accompanied by a series of stunning images. This is ‘Overworked & underwhelmed’.

Overworked & underwhelmed

It’s 2:56 am. I’m furious & exhausted. I worked all night but the money didn’t equal the task. They fucking blocked the exit to the 10 from the 405 for no fucking reason. I swear it’s just to make assholes like me drive through Beverly Hills & West Hollywood in the hopes of an arrest. Fucking LA. Bullshit. I gave out some of my best performances tonight. What a fucking racket. What is wrong with me? How am I so good at this? Nice skill. I’m over-worked. & still, I take a shower & put stupid spray tanner on. My towel smelled like jizz. What kind of life is this? I pictured something more. Actually, I didn’t think I’d live this long. Good joke. Yes, I’m feeling cynical right now. I’m sure I’ll want to heal the world tomorrow. The great joke. Welcome to my world. Healer. Stripper. Lover. Best friend. Hooker. Good god. I’m wired but want to find rest. I’m hungry but feel fat. Sweet torture. So privileged to be a girl. To be alive. Quote of the night, “There’s something about you”. Right. I’ve heard it all my life. It’s a rough business giving people what they want. & a dangerous one. I’m a master at making people feel good about themselves. I’m the drug. I didn’t design it that way. I get paid to do so. I fake connections. Orgasms. Shyness. I fake blushing. I can fake just about anything. But I do it with finesse & respect. Jesus. What a world. I’m tired. I’m going to try to sleep now.

{end of transcript}